Texting Anxiety

*9:00 PM Me: Hey Anxiety. I want to tell you some good news. Anxiety: Good news? What is it? Me: Yes! I got a job!!! After being jobless for 3 and a half months, I got a job! *Read at 10:30 PM *10:50 PM Me: Hello? Are you there? Anxiety: Yeah. Me: So, no goodContinue reading “Texting Anxiety”

Stupid Girl

Why did I allow myself to think that I could bring back something that was never meant to be? I wish I didn’t care as much as I do about this. It has never been a time when I felt so stupid as I do right now. I am so quick to think that everythingContinue reading “Stupid Girl”

Black Tears on Loop

Black Tears on Loop Yesterday, I saw a piece in the museum by Ebony G. Patterson called ‘…the kings weep…”  that made me cry. The work is a video installation that portrays three men dressing while tears quietly roll down their cheeks. While the three men are dressing, you hear the voice of a youngContinue reading “Black Tears on Loop”

The Shift

“We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty.” — Maya Angelou Going into my 35th year this year, I noticed that I have been shifting a lot in the past two years. And this shift that is taking place is not pleasant.Continue reading “The Shift”

Gaining Patience

Hi. My name is Ari, and I have no patience (Hi Ari). Seriously, I never had any patience. My Mama said that as a child, I always wanted to rush things along to check it off to say that I did it. So now, as a 34-year-old woman trying to unlearn this horrible habit isContinue reading “Gaining Patience”

Note to Self

Hey Ari, I am proud of you. Even though the past two months have not been the best for you, you are still standing. Thank you for not giving up because it has been challenging. I know that you have been down, but you were never out. In these couple of months, you learned thatContinue reading “Note to Self”

Bright Skies

The grey clouds of my two-month depressive episode have rolled away! I thought this day would never come that I could feel relief. Depression is such a weight that I would not wish on anyone. It keeps you clouded and blocks you off from the world. It is so hard being around things that areContinue reading “Bright Skies”

The Rough Seas are Ending

I decided that I had enough crying, and I wanted to speak to my Heavenly spirits to see what directions I needed to go. The cards I pulled fit, but I still felt hurt and anxious. As I was shuffling my cards to put them away, The Six of Swords jumped out of the deckContinue reading “The Rough Seas are Ending”

The Storm of Tears

I sobbed today during therapy. I just felt so overwhelmed that I couldn’t help but cry. It has been so hard not being where I want to be in life. Please don’t get me wrong; I am thankful for everything I have, but I want a little more comfort. It hurts so much thinking thatContinue reading “The Storm of Tears”

2022 Rules

Listen up 2022! You just got here, so I need you to play nice, okay? I have some pointers, so you know how to handle yourself around me. 1. Do not bring up past issues. 2. Stay consistent. 3. Stay in the moment. 4. If you cannot get it done today, chill. We still haveContinue reading “2022 Rules”