Will I ever be good enough? Will I ever be able to assist people and accept their thanks? I want to be able to see what others see in me. My mama always tells me that I am amazing and that she is thankful for me. Why can’t I see that? I don’t know ifContinue reading “Thoughts From the Notebook”
Category Archives: Mania
Gaining Patience
Hi. My name is Ari, and I have no patience (Hi Ari). Seriously, I never had any patience. My Mama said that as a child, I always wanted to rush things along to check it off to say that I did it. So now, as a 34-year-old woman trying to unlearn this horrible habit isContinue reading “Gaining Patience”
2022 Rules
Listen up 2022! You just got here, so I need you to play nice, okay? I have some pointers, so you know how to handle yourself around me. 1. Do not bring up past issues. 2. Stay consistent. 3. Stay in the moment. 4. If you cannot get it done today, chill. We still haveContinue reading “2022 Rules”
Hello Goodbye 2021
Hi 2021, I want to say that you really made me work this year mentally. I honestly cannot believe that I am still standing. I was hard on myself, and I almost felt that it wasn’t a purpose for me. But thankfully, I had my angels on Earth and in Heaven to comfort me. 2021Continue reading “Hello Goodbye 2021”
What Not to Say
There are days that I cannot stop myself from speaking badly about myself. I will dump some of the rudest things that I say to myself to erase them from my mind. Please note that I do not want anyone using these horrible statements. • Your goals are not obtainable • You are lazy •Continue reading “What Not to Say”
Release
Someone asked me what do you need to release? Here’s my list: I need to release fear I need to release anger I need to release regret I need to release shame I need to release losing friendships I need to release pain I need to release bitterness I need to release the idea ofContinue reading “Release”
Welcome Back
Hey Panic! It’s been a while since we saw each other. How have you been? What have you been doing? What made you come to see me? I thought we were over? I didn’t think I would see you again, but here you are. Causing every muscle to stiff up in my body. What canContinue reading “Welcome Back”
What If
What if I made the wrong choice about my career? What if I am not cut out for this degree? What if I am not as smart as my mother thinks I am? What if I was the cause of my long-term friendships ending? What if I don’t know how to communicate without getting inContinue reading “What If”
The Late Text
*Phone chimes* Depression: WYD? Me: Nothing. Trying to sleep. Depression: You’re lame for that. Me: How am I lame? Depression: Aren’t you sad? Me: No. Depression: SMH. Yes you are. Me: No I am not! Stop saying that I am. Depression: You’re sad AF. Just come clean. Me: Bye. Depression: You’re worthless. Depression: No oneContinue reading “The Late Text”
What I Won’t Do
What I Won’t Do Is I will not let people talk me out of my “No” I will not put myself last because it makes other people uncomfortable I will not listen to my inner critic I will not stop reaching my goals I will not let fear keep me from being my best selfContinue reading “What I Won’t Do”
Ari Speaks Out 