Thoughts at 1 Something AM

“The bravest thing I ever did was continuing my life when I wanted to die.”                                                                         -Juliette Lewis I can’t find rest. I want to be able to relax, but I can’t. I sit up, eat, and cry on the inside. I am beginning not to like myself. I feel like a waste of time

Thoughts From the Notebook

Will I ever be good enough? Will I ever be able to assist people and accept their thanks? I want to be able to see what others see in me. My mama always tells me that I am amazing and that she is thankful for me. Why can’t I see that? I don’t know if

A Letter to Depression

Depression, I do not know why you picked this time of the year to show yourself, but I would like it if you went the fuck away. I am sick of being drained. I am sick of feeling like a burden to my family and friends. Does it make you feel better that I am

Depression Is

Depression is like falling down a hole but never reaching the bottom Depression is like never seeing the sun Depression is a family of Elephants sitting on your back Depression is living in heavy fog Depression is barely breathing Depression is being trapped out in the middle of the ocean Depression is being lost out

Gaining Patience

Hi. My name is Ari, and I have no patience (Hi Ari). Seriously, I never had any patience. My Mama said that as a child, I always wanted to rush things along to check it off to say that I did it. So now, as a 34-year-old woman trying to unlearn this horrible habit is

Bright Skies

The grey clouds of my two-month depressive episode have rolled away! I thought this day would never come that I could feel relief. Depression is such a weight that I would not wish on anyone. It keeps you clouded and blocks you off from the world. It is so hard being around things that are