Thoughts at 1 Something AM

“The bravest thing I ever did was continuing my life when I wanted to die.”                                                                         -Juliette Lewis I can’t find rest. I want to be able to relax, but I can’t. I sit up, eat, and cry on the inside. I am beginning not to like myself. I feel like a waste of timeContinue reading “Thoughts at 1 Something AM”

Depression Is

Depression is like falling down a hole but never reaching the bottom Depression is like never seeing the sun Depression is a family of Elephants sitting on your back Depression is living in heavy fog Depression is barely breathing Depression is being trapped out in the middle of the ocean Depression is being lost outContinue reading “Depression Is”

A Little Pick Me Up for Little Ari

Hey Little Ari!   I know this week has been rough for you, but I wanted to write you something that will put a smile on your face. I hope these words will make you realize that you are loved and valued. Little Ari, you are allowed to cry about losing something that you wanted.Continue reading “A Little Pick Me Up for Little Ari”

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The Shift

“We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty.” — Maya Angelou Going into my 35th year this year, I noticed that I have been shifting a lot in the past two years. And this shift that is taking place is not pleasant.Continue reading “The Shift”

Come Follow Me ðŸŒŸâ˜ºï¸

Self-Love

Gaining Patience

Hi. My name is Ari, and I have no patience (Hi Ari). Seriously, I never had any patience. My Mama said that as a child, I always wanted to rush things along to check it off to say that I did it. So now, as a 34-year-old woman trying to unlearn this horrible habit isContinue reading “Gaining Patience”

Bright Skies

The grey clouds of my two-month depressive episode have rolled away! I thought this day would never come that I could feel relief. Depression is such a weight that I would not wish on anyone. It keeps you clouded and blocks you off from the world. It is so hard being around things that areContinue reading “Bright Skies”

The Storm of Tears

I sobbed today during therapy. I just felt so overwhelmed that I couldn’t help but cry. It has been so hard not being where I want to be in life. Please don’t get me wrong; I am thankful for everything I have, but I want a little more comfort. It hurts so much thinking thatContinue reading “The Storm of Tears”