“The bravest thing I ever did was continuing my life when I wanted to die.” -Juliette Lewis I can’t find rest. I want to be able to relax, but I can’t. I sit up, eat, and cry on the inside. I am beginning not to like myself. I feel like a waste of timeContinue reading “Thoughts at 1 Something AM”
Tag Archives: Depression
Thoughts From the Notebook
Will I ever be good enough? Will I ever be able to assist people and accept their thanks? I want to be able to see what others see in me. My mama always tells me that I am amazing and that she is thankful for me. Why can’t I see that? I don’t know ifContinue reading “Thoughts From the Notebook”
A Letter to Depression
Depression, I do not know why you picked this time of the year to show yourself, but I would like it if you went the fuck away. I am sick of being drained. I am sick of feeling like a burden to my family and friends. Does it make you feel better that I amContinue reading “A Letter to Depression”
Stupid Girl
Why did I allow myself to think that I could bring back something that was never meant to be? I wish I didn’t care as much as I do about this. It has never been a time when I felt so stupid as I do right now. I am so quick to think that everythingContinue reading “Stupid Girl”
Come Follow Me 🌟☺️
Come Follow Me 🌟☺️
Gaining Patience
Hi. My name is Ari, and I have no patience (Hi Ari). Seriously, I never had any patience. My Mama said that as a child, I always wanted to rush things along to check it off to say that I did it. So now, as a 34-year-old woman trying to unlearn this horrible habit isContinue reading “Gaining Patience”
Bright Skies
The grey clouds of my two-month depressive episode have rolled away! I thought this day would never come that I could feel relief. Depression is such a weight that I would not wish on anyone. It keeps you clouded and blocks you off from the world. It is so hard being around things that areContinue reading “Bright Skies”
The Storm of Tears
I sobbed today during therapy. I just felt so overwhelmed that I couldn’t help but cry. It has been so hard not being where I want to be in life. Please don’t get me wrong; I am thankful for everything I have, but I want a little more comfort. It hurts so much thinking thatContinue reading “The Storm of Tears”
2022 Rules
Listen up 2022! You just got here, so I need you to play nice, okay? I have some pointers, so you know how to handle yourself around me. 1. Do not bring up past issues. 2. Stay consistent. 3. Stay in the moment. 4. If you cannot get it done today, chill. We still haveContinue reading “2022 Rules”
Ari Speaks Out 